I buy alcohol to feel something,
and pills to feel nothing.
I drink whiskey straight from the bottle,
and as I shatter the bottle against the wall,
the broken pieces after the fall feel like my body.
Picture : Courtesy of Pinterest
At night instead of prayers,
I worship the pills on my bedside table that bring me rest.
Used matchsticks are scattered all over,
next to the half smoked joints and cigarette butts.
3 AM, I lay awake in bed, curled up into a ball
as random thoughts & sadness overwhelm me.
Sometimes I think of the ‘could haves’
and sometimes I think of the ‘whys’.
I reach for the phone and contemplate texting her.
But then I feel that’d be a weak ass move.
She made it clear we were over,
that she didn’t want anything to do with me, EVER.
As if that’s not enough,
I am expected to deal with it like a man.
Please tell me how men are supposed to hurt.
Let me know how men grief,
and deal with losses,
and heartbreaks.
And as my alarm goes off,
and daylight peers through the curtain,
I sigh satisfied like you’d do after finishing a good novel
that the night is over,
and I don’t have to be alone with my thoughts anymore.
But then again,
it’s another day to face the world
with a face showing no emotion whatsoever,
Like every other man ‘should’.
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20 replies on “MELANCHOLY.”
I seriously like the flow of content. Sensational!!
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Thanks Kevin😊
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It’s a beautiful and truthful poem.
Amaaazing.
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Thank you Carol for passing by😊
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Totally love this. Masculine stoicism is killing many men.
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Society is to blame..and thank you Sagini for reading.
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Really nice stuff
But to be honest men hurt more i think they just find a way to deal with their emotions not that we dont feel
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First, thanks Riqui.
I feel that the ways they deal with stuff might be self destructive Eg excessive alcohol consumption, anger, etc
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It’s an eye-opening article! Good use of imagery!
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Asante sana Wambû Kanambo😅
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“the broken pieces after the fall feel like my body.” -Beautiful and meaningful writing.
The ‘macho’ thing doesn’t work.
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Yeah.. It never works. And thank you Vera for passing by😊
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Wow, what a read…. I could relate each and every line in that writing
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Thank you for reading and I hope you find another way out.
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Wow! What a read, I could relate every statement in there…
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Thank you Moses😊
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wow such a beautiful and moving piece. I could relate so much.
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First, thank you for reading.
Second, I hope you’re feeling better now.
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This is sooo deep…😋nyambu mnnh
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Thank you Lynncy for reading and getting back☺
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